Well - there it goes. 2013. Only a few days are left. And what will remain of the year?
2013 started like a normal year. With a nice one-week-vacation, a solid base of work in the office.
Then... I don't know when exactly it happened. Must have been around March. Personal projects, less and less work. The summer holidays were planned too short, the weather was a midddleheavy disaster with the rain, the storm, the mud, the cold or burning heat... Recovery time? - No way.
Work trembled down the rabbit hole and soon the fear of losing the job was more than just an nasty little thing in the back of the head. Should I start looking for a new one or not? I decided against. New job? - No way.
Summer came. Well the few weeks with sun and warmth between rainy cold spring and rainy cold autumn. (What lies between spring and autumn? Winter! ) The situation became worse and worse, the head full with ideas, with fears, with problems that weren't even mine.
So a few weeks ago, in the first week of November, my body said to me "You there. You don't listen to me when I tell you to slow down? Then eat THIS!" and a small burn out hit me full in the face, literally. 6 week out of office, out of stress and searching for new energy to keep on going. One thing that helped me a lot to find my way back was a movie, called "The way" by Emilio Estevez. The story: A father heads overseas to recover the body of his estranged son who died while traveling the "El camino de Santiago," and decides to take the pilgrimage himself. (imdb.com)
This movie about the son, who gave up everything for his own luck, with the father who felt responsible and resumed the journey for his son, carrying his ashes all the 500 miles, touched me right in the middle of myself, especially the question that the father gave a hostel keeper: "Have you ever walked the camino?" and she answered "No. When I was young I had too much to do. Work to be done. Now I'm too old and too lazy."
So I asked myself when will I start to live for myself? When will I start the discover what the world offers instead of hiding in my 4 walls?
For years now I push myself more and more to go on, crossing limits now and then and now I received the payback.
No one will be happy if I'm out of order, it's no help for anyone when I'm away and unable to even get the few steps to the door. And honestly, it's frightening when I ask my friends and collegues and costumers, how many of them are in the same situation, some of them for years now.
But the solution is so simple.
Take your time. Quantity is not quality. Work, yes, but let the work stay in the office. Don't take it home, not even in your head. Slow down and enjoy your life. Find the bright spots even on a rainy day. Don't close your ears and eyes for your environment. And do what you want to do. Don't get lost in excuses like "no time, no money, not the right moment". Bullshit! If you really want it, you will find a way.
Everyone has 2 lives. And the second life starts when we realise, that we have only one life.
I will go into 2014 with a colorful potpourri of ideas and plans and I'm very curious how many I will turn from a plan to an act.